Not born poor
Neither rich
Not born marginalized
Neither a majoritarian
Not born with old money
Neither there is new money
Not born beautiful
Nor very ugly
Neither here
Nor there
Being somewhere
Also nowhere
Neither ultra left
Nor right or far right
Neither a doomsayer
Nor a dreamer
Somewhere in between
Nor a perpetrator
Or a predictor
Nor a victim
Nor cruel
Neither the kindest
Perhaps inbetween
Negotiating space
Counting Privileges
And gratitudes
Neither totally dead
Nor totally alive
Neither absent
Nor present
Somewhere in between
Totally exhausted
Brain fogged
Toiling like Sisyphus
Also being a zombie
Neither seeking
Validation
Nor rejection
Being there
And not being there
Trying to be
And not to be
Breathing in
Gasping out
Counting my privileges
As well as my curses
Silent spectator
Living while dying
Superposed states of being
Adding to almost nothing!!
Mad Decadence 