With all my courage
I try to fathom
The depth of the abyss
At the bottom
Of it are
Broken mirror pieces
Reflecting
The fractured
Fragmented world
And me
Category: light
An Ode to A Photographer
Photography is a rare art
Playing with omnipresent
Light and Time
Capturing moments
That transpire magically
Just like a sudden flight of a bird
Or deep pensive prayer of a saint
Or something unsettling
Or maybe deeply political
Just like a dying child staring
At an approaching vulture
These are moments of truth
That transcends Time
A photograph rarely lies
Unless of course it is doctored
To peddle a lie
Ever since it’s invention
There have been warriors
Going to the ends and the depth
To capture beauty and horror
Their gaze becomes
The gaze of the masses
That’s the magic
They turn you
Into them
The gaze changes places
You become the onlooker
Your silence becomes complicity
Life of a photographer
Isn’t an easy one
Trudging with the gears
They make the unseen
And unknown visible
They unravel the truth
That hides in the plain sight
Leaving us to wonder
How did we allow this to happen?
Are we going to do something?
Photographs have changed
The world history
But photographers carry
The burden of Sisyphus
They must push the boulders
And the borders again and again
They must teach
The blind populace to see
And behold the truth
And not turn a blind eye
Again and again
Photographers have turned
Cosmetic over ages
They just indulge in beauty
Safety and narcissism of it
Yet there came along
A rare tall one
With a discerning eye
And deep wisdom
Who could stop the world
With one single photograph
Using simple Light and Time
To paint the undeniable Truth
An ace visual storyteller
Holding the mirror to the world
Leaving for the future
Stories that are imprinted
By light on the frames of Time
And memory forever!!
PS: In remembrance of legendary Raghu Rai who passed on to another realm today
A Hot Summer Afternoon In Uru
Uru in kannada means ‘town/village/native place’. It turns out that I have experienced extreme summers in multiple major cities/towns of India.So I really don’t know which place I belong to whenever I think of hot summers.
My ancestors lived in the arid plateau of North Karnataka, I was born and brought up in Bombay. But every summer holidays we went to my grandparents place till we stopped going and they moved on. So hot summer afternoons were spent listening to my grandma’s tales from scriptures, playing with siblings and cousins till native homes were around. So did that place stop being my Uru? I really don’t know.
Then there were summers spent in Bombay in various suburbs. Mangoes and playtime dominate the memories. Also reading the few books we had again and again. Postponing all studies and homework till the holidays ended. The school reopening often coincided with the onset of monsoons.
Then I have been in other Urus looking for shade in the hot summer afternoon, thirsty sojourns and all yummy Rasnas and Ruh Afzaas to quench the thirst. The west of India has its own charm. Officially summer ended with watching monsoon on marine drive (not very far from the hospital where I was born).
I often wonder did the sea breeze kiss me in that cradle room before others did? I feel more like a wild nomadic kind who loves nature, seas, hills and starry nights. And most of all the evening breezes which come from nowhere to caress you at the end of a tiring day.
Like Kamala Das, I am digressing, I am from many places and have found unexpected twists and turns in life all the while searching for myself and trying to make peace with the void within. Love came and passed, like it always does – just like summer.
I am envious when flowers bloom, trees bear mangoes and other fruits while we face sweltering heat. I always thought, I am not a summer person.
And then one summer I found myself dirt poor in Paris with my young son. We rationed to afford a gelato but we splurged on a TGV ride. We thought it was going to be the only summer of our lifetimes spent in Lyon and Paris. But then that wasn’t to be…
Little did I imagine my boy would move there and I would move cities – another Uru and will be living by myself waiting for summer break to catch my breath. Listening to my son complain about unbearable heat in Paris and him wanting to be in my Uru to escape the heat.
Dystopian times indeed…summers are strange in any uru – any town – native or non native towns, be it here or in Europe. But then one can find kindness lurking in shadows in the hot cruel summer heat. I shifted to Uru two summers ago and found immense kindness in the city that had completely changed.
And then one fine day, in a cab ride, I found my playlist which resonated completely with my state of mind. Little did I imagine that I would be writing this prose poem while waiting for the live concert of same soulful songs to begin. Summer does spring surprises while springs often go summer!!
Love
A Noun?
A Verb?
An Adjective?
Human value?
Emotion?
Attachment?
Attraction?
Respect ?
Friendship?
Kinship?
Dopamine?
Oxytocin?
Validation?
Affection?
Admiration?
Desire?
Conditional?
Unconditional?
Affection?
Romance?
Platonic?
Narcissism ?
Passion?
Adoration?
Devotion?
Compassion?
Sympathy?
Obsession?
Lust?
Greed?
Love encompasses all, takes various forms… yet no one understands it…
PS: Have I missed something? Do add..
The Night Sky
Once upon a time
I would lie under the starry night
In utter darkness
To do a Messier marathon
I knew those magnificent
Beauties of the night sky
By their first name
Out of nowhere
They would appear
Once sun disappeared
We would behold them
In the field of view
Of our small and big
Telescopes facing the night sky
Just like the sun
Constellations would dip too
Below the horizon
While new ones appeared
Nothing compares to the
Silence and darkness
Of the dark night sky
Which has inspired
Countless artists and poets
I trust the night
It removes the blinding lights
Both sun and moon are absent
We can peer much deeper
And beyond
Going back in time
14 billion years is the age of the Universe
Along the way multitude of stars
In the billions of galaxies
Are burning away
Fusing atoms together
Forming newer elements
Elements that make you and me
And every being on this planet
We are after all atoms
Trying to figure out atoms
A scientist famously said
Annihilation preludes creation
And vice versa
Creation of new particles
And elements go on
Till the stable ones are born
Nature loves stability
But then entropy is a reality too
In the great cosmic churning
Life indeed is a miracle
But then…
One day after millions of years
The sun will die…
It will engulf the earth
Growing into a red giant
Till then we will play perhaps
This game of war and fear
While sending missions into the space
Such contradicting realities of our existence
We needn’t end it all here and now
We are self similar beings
Made of same cosmic dust
It would be such a pity
To cut this fabulous story short!!
PS: Inspired by Rainer Maria Rilke’s book – Poems to Night
A Poem a Day
It is a good way of beginning
The ‘Cruelest Month’ of the year
A poem a day!
How else would one survive?
The daily calamities, killings
And mournings
The sense of worse times ahead
For Entropy always wins
The beautiful flower of yesterday
Is wilted, fallen and forgotten
Just realised I did see the Halley’s Comet
And then came the afterthought
I won’t ever be seeing it again!
It will come irrespective of everything
As sun beckons it every 75 years
Plants thrive on sunlight
Maybe they bloom flowers
For the Sun!!
A return gift maybe
For all the free glorious light
Plants know gratitude
While we seem to thrive
On regret, hate and revenge!
#GloPoWriMo
Stars burn out too
Sun and stars may seem like
Permanent fixtures of our lives
Moving across the sky
The sun and other billions of them
They are literally a ball of fire
Constantly fusing atoms together
Depleting their reserves slowly
And very brightly
They are going to die too
Each one of them
Die and evolve into something else
Depending on how big or small they are
White dwarf, black dwarf, neutron stars
Or maybe a black hole
Just like every other being
The stars burn out too
And fade into oblivion
Their life timescales are too large
For us to witness
Like ours is for creatures who
Live for only for a bit
Nothing is permanent
Nor stars, nor universe nor we
Yet we keep seeking forevers
Knowing very well that
The cosmic dance can end any moment
Knowing that everyone will move on
Memories linger but that too
For a while, only a little while
In the grand scale of the universe
Sky, horizons, time, colours
Eternities and forevers are illusions
Stars burn out too…so do we…
Difficult Days
These are difficult days
When reality occults the dreams
It is bizarre isn’t it?
Reality that we try to figure out
Or try to make sense of ?
Is this also imagined ?
Then what is real?
What I think is real real?
The time that ticks away?
Or the dream that fades over time?
Is time too imagined?
Just like dreams ?
Sun does rise for real
But again it’s a play
Play of light, atmosphere
We see it before it even
Peeps over the horizon
While setting sun lingers elsewhere
It rises for us in full glory
It illuminates the tiniest dust particles
While darkness engulfs elsewhere
With no power to light their lives
Powerless have to make through
Another cold imprisoned night
Maybe darkness is a blessing
That hides the cruelty, rubble
That amputated humanity
Missing its phantom spine
Where do we go from here?
Dreams are the only ransom
We can pay
To continue existing
Dreams of freedom
And that hopeless hope
Stars twinkling away far off
They are the witnesses
Of how our sun was born
And our Earth came into being
How dinosaurs roared and vanished
Maybe if we can fine tune
From somewhere
Maybe it is still visible
How it all began
The eternal cycle of
creation and destruction
It is such a pity
We want to behold pleasure
Which comes at the cost of pain!
We want to behold AI
Which comes at the I
These are difficult days…
A Universe
A Universe of atoms
Thinking about atoms
A Universe of thoughts
Thinking about thinking
A Universe of moments
Missing key moments
A Universe of Silence
In search of words
A Universe of words
In search of meanings
A Universe of apathy
In search of compassion
A Universe of love
In search of tenderness
Ah! AI
Ah! AI
Ah! The clamour for supremacy
Race for Artificial Intelligence
While we lose natural traits
Along with all kinds of intelligence
In this game of supremacy
All are falling behind
Be it China, US, UK or name any
All bear the similar shame
Shame of bartering poor lives
Trading away dreams
Violating privacy
Outraging modesty
In this magnificent churn
Of algorithms and time
Wonder who will survive
When the planet dies?
Let us pause out
Take a time out
Remove our heads
From the sand
Information ain’t knowledge
Machines aren’t human
Money isn’t the end game
Neither is power
When empires topple
It is the poor rebels
Who make it alive
While tyrants flee
Time spares none
Not even the sun or stars
We are mere mortal
Accidental stardust!
– Jan 2025
Bangalore
