What begins, always ends
And all ends have a beginning
Just like in Life
And in everything else
Life too begins
And Life ends
The journey lies in between
Suspended in memories
And disbelief!!
What begins, always ends
And all ends have a beginning
Just like in Life
And in everything else
Life too begins
And Life ends
The journey lies in between
Suspended in memories
And disbelief!!
Democracy is imprisoned
In the name of justice
Justice is imprisoned
In the name of freedom
Freedom is imprisoned
In the name of Peace
Peace is imprisoned
In the name of War
War is shackled too
In the name of economy
Economy is prisoned too
In the name of capitalism
Capitalism is boxed too
By the markets and profits
One person’s loss is
Another one’s gain
The media is imprisoned too
In the name of propaganda
Propaganda itself is made of lies
Lies aren’t free too
They have to hide the truth
Truth is in gallows too
On non-bailable terms
Don’t ask who benefits
Everyone has lost the plot
Old money gets older
New money becomes old
Those who are poor
Remain poorer
How else will we define
The real rich?
Marginalized communities
Define the majoritarian
Who turn authoritarian
Till…till everyone loses the plot
And the script flips
Nature loves entropy
But it likes balance too…
Not everyone gets away
With it all…
Where do you stand?
Uru in kannada means ‘town/village/native place’. It turns out that I have experienced extreme summers in multiple major cities/towns of India.So I really don’t know which place I belong to whenever I think of hot summers.
My ancestors lived in the arid plateau of North Karnataka, I was born and brought up in Bombay. But every summer holidays we went to my grandparents place till we stopped going and they moved on. So hot summer afternoons were spent listening to my grandma’s tales from scriptures, playing with siblings and cousins till native homes were around. So did that place stop being my Uru? I really don’t know.
Then there were summers spent in Bombay in various suburbs. Mangoes and playtime dominate the memories. Also reading the few books we had again and again. Postponing all studies and homework till the holidays ended. The school reopening often coincided with the onset of monsoons.
Then I have been in other Urus looking for shade in the hot summer afternoon, thirsty sojourns and all yummy Rasnas and Ruh Afzaas to quench the thirst. The west of India has its own charm. Officially summer ended with watching monsoon on marine drive (not very far from the hospital where I was born).
I often wonder did the sea breeze kiss me in that cradle room before others did? I feel more like a wild nomadic kind who loves nature, seas, hills and starry nights. And most of all the evening breezes which come from nowhere to caress you at the end of a tiring day.
Like Kamala Das, I am digressing, I am from many places and have found unexpected twists and turns in life all the while searching for myself and trying to make peace with the void within. Love came and passed, like it always does – just like summer.
I am envious when flowers bloom, trees bear mangoes and other fruits while we face sweltering heat. I always thought, I am not a summer person.
And then one summer I found myself dirt poor in Paris with my young son. We rationed to afford a gelato but we splurged on a TGV ride. We thought it was going to be the only summer of our lifetimes spent in Lyon and Paris. But then that wasn’t to be…
Little did I imagine my boy would move there and I would move cities – another Uru and will be living by myself waiting for summer break to catch my breath. Listening to my son complain about unbearable heat in Paris and him wanting to be in my Uru to escape the heat.
Dystopian times indeed…summers are strange in any uru – any town – native or non native towns, be it here or in Europe. But then one can find kindness lurking in shadows in the hot cruel summer heat. I shifted to Uru two summers ago and found immense kindness in the city that had completely changed.
And then one fine day, in a cab ride, I found my playlist which resonated completely with my state of mind. Little did I imagine that I would be writing this prose poem while waiting for the live concert of same soulful songs to begin. Summer does spring surprises while springs often go summer!!
In a world
Where judgement
Precedes knowledge
Prejudice before
Understanding
In an era
Where world tries
To make you
Someone else
Weaves a tale
That suits their
Narratives
A world where
You are a misfit
You feel naturally
Like an imposter
In a world
Everything seems
Staged and performative
A doll’s house perhaps
Anything original
Is constantly doubted
Needing proof
A world which
Keeps validating lies
Creating false narratives
And a cloud of confusion
What else can you feel
But an imposter?
There are masks
Behind masks, underneath masks
Agendas hiding agendas
Like Martyoshka dolls
All identical and empty
A riot of shamelessness
Arrogance of patriarchy
What else can you be?
But an Imposter
Shape shifting, flowing
Trying to fit in
But feeling half empty
And also overwhelmed
You didn’t ask for this ride
You didn’t ask for these lies
Or these false narratives
Not sure who is
Hallucinating here
Me or you ?
Or who is the imposter?
Me? Or You?
Or the humanity itself!!
Marianne you sang
“As Tears Go By”
At a very tender age
And then life happened
Men took you for granted
They were seen as Bohemians
But you were labelled a slut
You went down the rabbit hole
Found yourself living on the streets
One has to hit the bottom low
To reverse the curve
Which you did brilliantly
And with much grace
You didn’t hate the men
You chose to rise above them
They sought popularity
You took refuge in literature and poetry
You forged your own solo path
And gave the world its own
Cold war anthem
“Broken English”
A complete arch of life
Beating all odds
Seeking depth and beauty
Amidst all the darkness
Your voice changed too
But your singing didn’t
The world denied you awards
Time and again
But you never cared
Life has to be lived
After all for life’s sake
Not for the sake of
Judgement and validation
Validation from whom?
And for why?
People will discover
Your “Seven Deadly Sins”
Which actually saved you!!
Oh! Marianne…
As life goes by…
Your words ring so true!!
Image courtesy: Album cover of Broken English
A Noun?
A Verb?
An Adjective?
Human value?
Emotion?
Attachment?
Attraction?
Respect ?
Friendship?
Kinship?
Dopamine?
Oxytocin?
Validation?
Affection?
Admiration?
Desire?
Conditional?
Unconditional?
Affection?
Romance?
Platonic?
Narcissism ?
Passion?
Adoration?
Devotion?
Compassion?
Sympathy?
Obsession?
Lust?
Greed?
Love encompasses all, takes various forms… yet no one understands it…
PS: Have I missed something? Do add..
Tonight I want to talk
About the courage
Courage of those who are
Facing imminent fatal threats
As fear looms large
No one is talking about leaving
Or fleeing the war
It has been a pattern
Among all the nations under attack
No one is leaving to make conquest easy
Tonight we need to talk about this courage
Courage of common people
Who take the batterings
Who are easy civilian targets
Yet they refuse to leave or flee
They bury their children and kin
They live in refugee camps
They return back to the rubbles
To rebuild again and again
As long as the ceasefire lasts
They stand up to
The truth and power
While every powerful nation chooses silence
They don’t leave or flee
Their ancestral land and home
Despite all indignity and threats
They keep showing up as human chains
They keep recording
And collecting evidence
In the hope that civility and peace
Will return again
And one day wars
Will become redundant
Tonight let’s talk about the courage
The courage of four astronauts
Who flew furthest from the earth
To the dark side of the moon
To watch unseen craters and an eclipse
Perhaps knowing well
Their mission will be eclipsed
By the war and fear mongering
They saw our beautiful blue planet
Knowing very well how bad the things are
Yet they speak of One Earth
Tonight let’s talk about the courage
Courage in the face of the fear and death
Tonight I don’t want to
Write the saddest or angry lines
I want to stand in solidarity with those
Who are being relentlessly attacked
If they have the courage to hope
To bear it all and fight back
And have guts to die
What we think or do is inconsequential
Their land, river and mountains
Will remember them
As a resilient civilization
I will just hope
Hoping against hope
This exemplary courage will win
It has to win against the evil
Fear is not even a choice
Fear was never a choice!!
Every Peace treaty
Every marriage
Every relationship
Every dysfunctional family
That fails
Has a history
Of Unkept promises
Promises which did not
Pass the test of time
There should be
A proper closure
For unkept promises
Or else they turn into deep wounds
They grow like cancer
Occupying spaces
Leaving no breathing room
They are like unseen
Elephants in the room
Which are never addressed
The room where
Where adults play
The game of pretend
Lies and amnesia
While teaching their youngs
Lessons of morals, values
And promises…
That promises are meant to be kept!!
I became you
And you became them
All boundaries blurred
Between predators and preys
Every role flipped
In a role reversal
Victims turned into proud bullies
Preying upon helpless victims
Me, you, us and them
We keep changing our roles
Going in circles
Irony itself has become ironical
Like never before
I has been replaced by AI
Human by machines
Humans have turned into
Well dressed mannequins
Frozen like zombies
Doom scrolling away
Devouring themselves
Life has turned into monstrous death
In the finest of all role reversal
They feel most alive
When they kill
A movie showing severed flying head
Gets all the screens
While life affirming Space film
Finds hardly a space
Addiction to violence!
Ironically life always wins
Hiroshima and Nagasaki
Didn’t change anything
Cherry blossoms do bloom
And paper cranes are still a craze
Ironically the victim nation
Never built the bomb
It ended the cycles
Of trauma and violence
But the bully nation
That built and used it
Is back with the same flex
Ironically bullies often
Call themselves victims
What scares them?
Addicted to violence and power
They refuse to give up
Their carnal desires
While Artemis II is on its way
To the darker side of the moon
Humanity has plunged
The planet Earth
Into one of its darkest phase
How diabolical
And Ironical!
It is a good way of beginning
The ‘Cruelest Month’ of the year
A poem a day!
How else would one survive?
The daily calamities, killings
And mournings
The sense of worse times ahead
For Entropy always wins
The beautiful flower of yesterday
Is wilted, fallen and forgotten
Just realised I did see the Halley’s Comet
And then came the afterthought
I won’t ever be seeing it again!
It will come irrespective of everything
As sun beckons it every 75 years
Plants thrive on sunlight
Maybe they bloom flowers
For the Sun!!
A return gift maybe
For all the free glorious light
Plants know gratitude
While we seem to thrive
On regret, hate and revenge!
#GloPoWriMo