There is a lump Stuck in my throat It can’t be removed Surgically It just stays there Just like the abyss In my heart or perhaps brain I keep sinking into A free fall With no rock bottom With no voice To scream for rescue Not sure whether There is a rescue team As neither my internal abyss Nor lump in my throat Is visible or audible That’s what it is For most women I am told You learn to stay afloat Put a brave front And you scream internally Without letting out a whimper You accept praises and criticisms Whatever comes your way You assume you have a purpose Or a role Until you decide to step away From the roleplays To realise You are invisible too The world never sees you as a person But rather as a wife or mother or sister You step away And you are reduced to a nobody How liberating is that!! They care only till you care You like a fool kept caring Letting them humiliate The Law of reciprocity Is always learnt a hard way But apply it Just like everyone does In every other sphere You will see What you hold together Collapses as a pack of cards And then you realise The cards were rigged With misogyny To remain as an object or As a person with lump In the throat And Abyss in the heart To sink without a sound
Step and snap out now Out of the roleplay To find your own voice And your sense of balance You will be visible To those who want to see you Rest do not matter At least you will be visible To your damned self
In that damn mirror!
Image courtesy: Anuran Kar Gupta, Physics researcher based in Paris